Monday, July 19, 2010


There is the drop Ive been waiting for! There is a certain weight that my body really likes - REALLY likes! Like I cant get past it no matter what I do kind of certain weight! It was the lowest I have been able to obtain after each pregnancy. Even this time with Beckham I did actually get under it, but only because I had the stomach flu for 3 days. When I got better I went right back. That is where I lost all of my motivation in the winter!

That is the one thing that convinced me to seek the help of a Dr because it really shouldn't be that impossible to get under it. The last two weeks have been discouraging. I know, I shouldn't complain at a pound a week, but I'm working so hard and should be able to lose 2 pounds a week. That second week when I was only down another pound was hard. Probably because I felt down more than that but the number didn't want to move!

My Dr thinks my body just really resits going under that weight and when we get me low enough below it, my body will respond and start dropping the weight and I can reset a new weight for my body to maintain. This week I'm down 4 pounds! That puts me 6 pounds under that stubborn number and I'm so motivated to put even more distance between me and that dreaded number!

I had a blast writing out our story. Sorry it got broken up into so many days but I started writing it 3 days before I ever posted anything. It helped to write a segment and then let it sit in the recesses of my mind for a few days and allow the little details to come back at unexpected times. I fell in love with John all over again just writing it. It certainly made me take a step back and realize how fortunate I am for such a wonderful man as my companion.

Surprisingly it motivated me to be a better person. As I thought about who I felt I use to be - bubbly, deliberate, fun loving, full of gumption - It whispered to me that I am still that girl. A little older, a little more mature, but that it still a part of me if I choose to let it break through from the monotony of our routine. It reminded me to be fun and all the dreams I had for this time in my life. I am living my dream - I can not miss one day by not living it to its fullness with a grateful heart!

Could this really be Monday? I feel like I could conquer the world today.
Perhaps I will settle for conquering my household chores.


Pam (Haslem) Dana said...

YEY! So happy for you!

Grandma Caroline said...

Honey, I love that feeling when you could conquor the whole world. Congratulations on getting over the hump and we really are the most blessed people on earth!