Thursday, March 31, 2011

Spring has Sprung!

This years decor was inspired by my Mom and it reminds me of her. We loved to go to tea together and a couple of years ago she gave me her silver tea set. I'm missing her a lot right now.

I love tulip time! Karla has more amazing tulip pictures that I am drooling over! Delicate Daffodils shouts spring to me! It makes me long to be at the tulip festival this year....

I even got my indoor herb garden growing!

I have a few more projects Ive been working on that I'm really excited about and will post when they are done.

Treasures found

While going through my Moms things I found a drawer stuffed with all of the cards she received from her family over the last 10 years. There were only a few things from when we were little kiddos but they are so special. Here is one of those treasures typed on our old typewriter.

Sunday, March 27, 2011


I feel like I have been walking on a very thin line ever since coming back and putting my life back together. I came back with a vision of the kind of routine I wanted to come back to and for the most part I have achieved it and its brought me so much peace, to bad it comes with a nice side of guilt.

This last month I have laughed more, finished projects, relaxed, played, and enjoyed life so much more. Its wonderful! My creativity is running rampant! I never had time to get my house clean or organize or finish projects because I was always spreading myself so thin. I'm enjoying my boys - not just managing them! Its so great to see them for the joy they are and look forward to the sound of their feet in the morning. We hug, cuddle, laugh, and their little faces light up when I am with them and even better I feel like my face lights up when I get to spend time with them! It is the most fulfilling thing I have ever experienced.

I remember having conversations with my Mom and telling her she needed to learn to say "no" and she would roll her eyes at me. It was easy for me to see things in perspective because I was an outsider. I wasn't great at saying no myself but I have gotten much better. But saying no is not the hard part for me. The hard part is not jumping in to help when I see a need. For example I saw a very stressful situation where they really could have used my help but I was suppose to be spending that time hanging out with my boys. And so I turned on my heels and left without stepping in to save the day. I felt like I had abandoning those in need.

Programs like PTA and AYSO survive off of volunteers but there are not enough volunteers out there. It should be a burden shared by all the parents but it seems that it ends up falling on just a few. To walk away when there are needs feels like....I cant really describe the word - irresponsible(?) To not step in and save the day seems like cowardice. I feel like I am creating an even bigger burden on those left behind. Is it fair that I want to be with my family more and so it seems I am making them be with their families less? Who picks up the slack?

Where do charity and service come in? It seems more socially acceptable to serve those outside of our house and put those that should be first - last on our list. I know I was. My kids got what was leftover, which sadly wasn't very much at times. Why do I feel like there are times that my desire to serve at home is viewed as being selfish? I think its good for kids to see their parents serve. To learn sacrifice, hard work, and gumption. But where is that fine line between being good for kids - or being at the kids expense?

Before I left for CA I had just enough time to manage my kids and give a few encouraging words but poor John got nothing but a worn and exhausted woman at the end of the day. There wasn't time spent thinking about silly and fun things to do, time to sit around and do nothing, or time to cuddle for a short nap on a Saturday. Love was support and sacrifice which is not bad but love needs to be fed too.

So now I'm balancing back and forth, constantly weighing the consequences of how I spend my time. There is nothing that has changed in the last week - no situation that has brought this post on. Its just taken this long to get the courage to sit down and try to find the words for my feelings. I am a go-getter. I always have been and always will be - just like my Mom. Its so hard to walk away when I know I can help lift another burden. Its hard not to feel responsible for saving the whole world.

As a kid you don't understand that when you are older you don't chose between right and wrong, rather you are usually choosing between good, great, and another great. It would be easier to chose between a simple black/white or right/wrong. Clear cut, precise, and easy to discern would be so nice right about now.

I think a lot about David O. McKay's quote, "No success can compensate for failure in the home." For me no other success feels as good as the success of putting my boys first. All of them! Whether it be reacting to something one of my boys have done calmly rather than on a short tight fuse all of the time, or getting up to make breakfast and spend a few minutes talking with John in the morning. Nothing makes me feel happier than making them feel happy.

I want to serve and help those in need but I am giving myself permission to do that for my family first. I keep going back to a quote from one of the women in my life that I admire, Sarah who started me moving in this direction when she wrote on her blog about her daughters:

"They deserve everything I can give them. Most of all, my time."

Time really is the most valuable thing we have. I love the part of myself that has been reawakened in the last month. The optimism, the bubblyness, the fun, and the tender. My perspective is changing, who I am inside is changing. When I take the time to be the mother and the wife I want to be - it changes me.

When I was a little girl my dreams consisted of raising a family and all I have ever wanted to be was a wife and mother. Everyone has different dreams and its fulfilling our own dream that truly brings internal happiness.

I have my dream and I don't want to miss out on living it!

Subway art

I love all the Subway art that's trendy right now. I liked having a St Patty's Day one on our mantle (yes - I know its not a real mantle but that's what I call it!) I knew there would be spring ones coming out but I wanted one that focused on the Savior and not on the Easter bunny and egg hunts. I tried making one last night and they are WAY harder to make then they look! Here is what I came up with!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

It's the small things...

...that make the difference!

For example: We bought these re-freezable ice cubes while at Disneyland. We thought they would enjoy them with A&W (they have insisted A&W become part of our movie and pizza night!)

But their best use has come in this form:

They love to eat hot cereal but its always a fight because its "TOOOOOO HOT!" Now each morning I throw a couple of Mickeys in their bowls and they eat willingly and without complaint!

And without complaint makes ALL the difference!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Chore Charts

Now that our house is all organized I am determined to keep it clean! While I was in CA Caleb went to the Hicken's each day and he was so excited when they put him on their chore chart - go figure!?! When I got back I decided it was time to have the boys start doing chores around our house too.

It has been the best thing that has ever happened to our house! Our mirrors, counters, and windows are clean ALL OF THE TIME! Its awesome! They do such a good job and they love to do them. Here is the chart I made for them to check off each day.

We also put the token system into play and the boys can earn marbles by doing their work with a good attitude, being kind, sharing, and doing things without be asked twice. On Thursday's if they have done all of their chores for the week that earns them enough marbles to play Club Penguin. In order to "buy" the other rewards they have to earn the marbles in other ways. This is the rewards chart I made.And because I knew I didn't want to fall behind on the house either I decided to make myself a chore chart too! I laminated and posted it on the fridge and each day I use a dry erase marker to cross them off and then erase it when the week is done. It works really well! Not only do I feel like I can keep up on the house but I also don't feel overwhelmed on any given day.

Potty Training Progress

Becks is doing AWESOME with potty training. People say boys are harder than girls but I think it might be because they wait to long. He now goes all by himself without me having to ask him as long as he only has undies on. We put pants on him last night after he had gone all day without an accident and whoops!

He is also 0-2 on going number 2 but I expected that. For some reason that always takes a lot longer to catch onto - maybe its because there are less opportunities. Either way I am really proud of him and we have had a lot of fun the last few days! Our new favorite song (to the tune of the Tiki room) In the pee-pee pee-pee pee-pee pee-room pee-pee room, in the pee-pee pee-pee pee-pee pee-room pee-pee room...I will save you the rest of the song full of very creative and potty filled language :)

He has also rocked his big boy bed. Last night was the first night he got out of bed but he went right back to sleep. The night before I actually heard him get up for a minute right after Caleb had been up to go the bathroom. I heard Caleb help him back to bed and tuck him in and then they both went straight to bed.

Those kind of moments make my Mommy heart melt!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Bye Bye Diapers!

I keep coming up with reasons why I'm going to potty train Beckham "next week" and have been saying "next week" for about a month now. I'm seeing his interest wane a little and so last night he and I went and let him choose big boy undies - Yo Gabba Gabba, Cars, and Thomas the Train. Today we are doing laundry and I thought I might as well multitask it with the potty training laundry.

Now if you will excuse me its time to go sing our song....
"Pee Pee in the Po-tty! Pee Pee in the Po-tty!"

He looks SO big!
Wish us luck!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Bye Bye crib!

While I was in CA John found a toddler bed for free! Its such a great little sleigh bed! It was white and had scribbles all over it - nothing 3 cans of spray paint couldn't fix!

He did pretty good last night. It took a little reminding from Mom not to get out of bed but overall it was pretty easy! For the first time in 7 years we don't have a crib up! Its a little bit sad but also very exciting! In about a week I think I'm going to tackle making our home diaper free! Yikes!

Spring Break

We had a very full and fun Spring Break in CA!
  • Disneyland (which was way to busy to do rides) but since Davis has been into getting autographs we went on the Toy Story Ride first thing in CA Adventures and spent the rest of the time on Main Street getting autographs and riding the Double Decker bus around. It was a fun change from our normal routine.
  • Tony's Pizza - YUM YUM YUM!
  • Sea World with Grandpa which was really great! We got to see the New Horizons show which was amazing and all of the animals seemed to perform right in front of us this trip. We saw the new baby Beluga whale (ohhhhh so cute!) and played hard in the Elmo's Playground area.
  • Dinner with Grandpa and Grandma Henderson - always a treat! The boys love to golf on their little green in the backyard!
  • Lots and lots of swimming!
  • Daddy caught a ride and showed up Thursday!
  • Boat races with Grandpa

We did get to watch some surfing....

Some of the surfers were awesome...

And others entertaining....

The boys got to chase the birds....

... we also ate gelato, browsed the art vendors, and hung out!

We LOVE the beach!

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Luck O' the Irish

This year I wore green in the form of my Moms ring and necklace and it made me feel lucky! I think it will grace my finger and neck each year on St Patty's.

Caleb made us a treasure map this year to find the hidden leprechauns in the backyard....

In the end we found the pot of gold....

...and the treasure to go with it!

It took a lot of time to make rainbow Jell-O for our treat and the boys were SO excited about it! I mean SO excited! It was hard to get a decent picture of it but it was really pretty.

It was yummy too!

Stair Spanking

We are in CA this week. Ive been going through my Moms closet and bathroom stuff. Its been full of all sorts of emotions and memories.

This morning I decided to take the boys on a true So Cal adventure to a special store that we don't have in St George (or at least that I have never seen). We went to a donut shop! Happy memories of my seminary days. My boys looooove donuts and so a whole store dedicated to donuts was sure to be a pleaser.

As we were going upstairs to get our shoes on I swatted Caleb on the bum and he protested loudly. I just cant help myself there is something about our stairs and bum swatting - especially if my brother Mark is anywhere around! I told Caleb that its just tough luck - if you don't want to get spanked you better run faster than me and especially Uncle Mark.

At this Davis exclaimed - "Uncle Marky! Uncle Marky! When I was at Uncle Marky's house he hit my bum when I goed up the stairs! But, but, he told me that it was their doggie! Really Mom, really!"

I laughed so hard! If anything sums up many of my memories of my brother Mark it might be that right there. Spanking my bum on the way up my stairs and him jokingly blaming things on something ridiculous. I'm so glad my boys wont miss out on that part of Uncle Marky. I wouldn't want us all to grow up too much!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

6 dollar Bathroom Makeover

$3 Shower curtain - $3 Picture for the wall
Much better!