Touching

The end is near.


Its been a not so long road that feels really long and I'm not sure how I feel about it ending. So I'm going to avoid talking about it right now and change the subject.

About a month ago I had a friend tell me that she wanted to come here for the funeral. She wanted to come and watch my boys so I could focus on being a daughter and not have to also be a frantic Mother (because I know Beckham would be running all over graves and picking up all the flowers and throwing them - or not look where hes running and end up in a 6 foot deep hole). It was one of the kindest gifts ever given. Right next to the offer from different friends who do photography who have offered to photograph the funeral for me. Which is right up there with the offer from a sweet friend who told my husband not to hire cleaners for our home before I come back because she wants to do it. Which is right up there with the offer from the RS to help that friend when I despaired at how messy it might be for that one special friend :)

Countless acts of service, countless words of encouragement.

If I ever doubted the good in human nature I will forever now see it the divine in our nature. I had a few e-mails over the last 2 days from friends who have expressed their desire to come to the funeral. Even the desire to be here with me in this hard time overwhelms me that you care that much for me.

Because I knew of the good in my ward here I wanted to do something to make it a little easier on friends of mine that are trying to make it work. I have shelter for you. Really fun shelter that will make you feel like you are back at Girls Camp or in college with a bunch of girls again. If you are thinking of bringing your hubby - I have shelter for you too - just not as Suzie's house :)

Thank you. I am overwhelmed. Overwhelmed that some of you are trying to make the trip, overwhelmed that friends here will help make that possible, and overwhelmed at others that will work to make my home peaceful for me when I return. I wish I could give you a tentative date but all I have is that it will be in 1-2 weeks.

YOU all are making what is one of the hardest experiences of my life, one of the most uplifting. Part of me despairs because I am losing my closest female companion and now I see the flood of love from the girlfriends I am surrounded by and I know that I will not be left without companionship.

I love you all!