My grateful heart...

As I sit and think about what I am most thankful for this year I am overwhelmed at the blessings in my life. The last month really has made me realize what an amazing family I have, all of our family who have prayed for us and given us encouragement. Right now there are a few people who I want to give special thanks to...

• My parents have always stood by John and I in good and bad times. I will NEVER forget the first call I had with them after I found out we were going to have problems with this pregnancy, they just both assured me that we are family and we take care of each other. They have been by my side through all of medical issues I have had over the past couple years and been there for me when I needed them, or even when they know I just want them here. I always feel like I can still come home to Mom and Dad and they will make everything better. Sometimes I just call to hear their voices. Its such a blessing to have a Dad and Mom like mine.
• My sister in law Kate who has been a surrogate mother for my boys the past couple of weeks. I know it probably hasn't been easy but she has always been positive and made me feel that the boys are welcome. I appreciate so much the work she has done but more importantly the love she has given to them. At the end of the day she also has provided me with an update on her blog and posted some pictures so I can feel connected to my boys.
  
• My brother Brian who not only has handled all of my questions regarding the economy for the past year patiently but who also has taken in our boys. He even came home early all last week from work to be there to help.
• My brother Mark who also patiently answers all of my computer/photoshop questions. I'm sure both of my brothers wish I did not use them as my go-to boys but they are the best, so why go anywhere else.
• My sister in law Lisa who has given me comfort that only she can offer because in some ways only she can understand some of the feelings that I have had.
• Our Grandma John and Grandma Barb who have been so supportive and have been there for me to discuss some heavy issues with and help me see things in perspective. They truly have unconditional love for us and its such a blessing to our lives.
• My sweet John who has stood by my side through all of this patiently bearing my emotional state and helping me laugh at myself. It has been so fun and endearing for us to have some one on one time and it helps me remember just how lucky I am to be his wife. He believes in me even when I don't believe in myself and sees me the way that I can be and the potential I have. I love him so much more today than the day than I married him and eternity doesn't seem like a long enough to be together.
• Last of all my Caleb and Davis. You just never appreciate your children enough when they are around but having them be away has made me realize just how lucky I am to be their Mother. I was never able to fully appreciate what the Savior meant when he tells us to be like children until I had the two most perfect boys . They are so quick to love, forgive, and be kind. I could keep writing but I'm crying a little to hard that contractions are starting so I better stop although I could go on forever....

I'm so excited to add yet another sweet baby to this family. Beckham is so blessed to be able to be born into such a wonderful family, not only to those in his immediate family but with such a great extended family too.